'I absolutely loved having all those eyes on me.'
We all have different levels of comfort when it comes to attention. Some people crave constant attention, others shy away from ever being the spotlight. Most of us fall somewhere in the middle. What I've learned most about attention, is most people are comfortable with it, only if they're in control. Most of us can handle and enjoy attention when we're in charge and able tor regulate the degree coming our way. It's when it's out of our control, that we often struggle.
This inability to control is one of the reasons I'm always fascinated to profile models who pose nude in front of a classroom full of students or any large group of strangers. Posing naked, even in front of one person can be a challenge, but with just one other person, a relationship can be built and negotiations can occur. When you're posing in a room full of people, you're more than just naked. The instructor is usually in charge, and group dynamics make it difficult to connect with every set of eyes cascading over every inch of your body.
Some models however, thrive with this intense degree of attention. Despite being in front of large groups of strangers, they're able to use their bodies, their poses, their confidence and attitude to thrive in their vulnerability. It is this lack of control, so many nude life models learn to erotically appreciate and enjoy. When he was just 18, Stu (S2) saw an ad in the Village Voice that invited people to visit a nude club for a day. Something about it excited the young student and he decided to give it a shot. Although S2 wasn't initially sure why, once he got there, he felt immediately comfortable with his clothes off. It was there, that he met a woman who was an art instructor and first asked if he would pose for her class.
'The first posing that I did was for a college class of students who were all about my age. I knew I had to be naked for the posing and I was nervous as hell as I took my clothes off in front of the twenty or so students. But within ten minutes of standing naked in front of that group my nervousness disappeared.'
When he was about five, S2 played a New Years baby in a community center holiday show. Other than that, and seeing a few photos and drawings in magazines, S2 had next to no knowledge of what modeling, especially nude modeling, would entail. For the New Year's gig, he got to wear a pair of white underwear, but of his next gig, in front of the art class, the underwear had to come off. Fortunately, after he started, several art instructors understood he was a novice and offered advice and helpful suggestions.
San Deigo ArtGym and from the San Diego Gay Men's Art Group
'I liked taking risks and I enjoyed being naked. Also, when I was a child I belonged to a YMCA where on men's days all boys and men swam naked. Seeing so many boys and men nude and thinking nothing about it convinced me that nudity was acceptable and not a big deal. So that experience, from five to fourteen years old, helped me be totally comfortable being nude in front of many people. Posing naked also paid very well. Art class models who posed fully dressed were at the lowest pay scale. Posing in underwear paid more. Nude posing had the highest pay scale. I needed the money!'
S2 says in some ways it's easier posing for just one artist, they usually know what they want and typically give good directions. In an art class, or a photo workshop, it can also work equally well if there's a good instructor who provides clear posing directions. Sometimes, in an open group, there's no instructor. It can be a bit of a free for all, with different people, often with their own goals, wanting different poses. In those cases, S2 finds it easier just to take over and do his own thing. That way he doesn't have to deal with any conflicting or unrealistic requests.
'When it comes to odd propositions or being shocked by a request, a couple things come to mind. One has happened more than a few times.... When someone I know, someone who didn't know I posed, walks into an art or photo workshop and realizes that I'm going to be their model. Fortunately in every case the embarrassment the person was feeling or showing abated quickly. I found these experiences to be humorous and ignored the person's discomfort. And to help the person I would walk over to them during a break and chat with them to demonstrate that I was fine about being their model. That strategy seemed to help.'
'I've never thought of myself as being more than having average looks. I don't have the fashion model look by any stretch of the imagination. But that has worked for me as artists want someone posing who is able to hold still, who is creative with their poses and who is totally comfortable being closely studied while naked. I had one art instructor tell me that I'm a "natural' at posing since I held poses with ease and since it was clear that I was totally comfortable being naked for his classes. He even suggested, in jest, that I should teach classes on how to be a nude model. I guess the other compliment has been that I've been requested and booked repeatedly at different art schools over the years. If they didn't like me I would not have become a regular at many art schools.'
If you're thinking, as I did, that S2 has an especially insightful way of describing his time modeling nude in front of strangers, there's a reason. S2 has spent a lot of time thinking back over his time modeling in order to create his new book Lights On-Clothes Off. In the book, due for release this spring, S2 uses his personal experiences, from his initial anxieties, through his ultimate acceptance with being an exhibitionist. Through his main character, Eddie Saul, S2 details the hidden desires and secret life of an unstoppable exhibitionist. You can check out more, and pre-order the book HERE:
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